"Feelings of guilt as well as feelings of love. It was written by an amateur and it could remain her only one. For it is the autobiographical story of a dramatic life crisis. And crisis here really means in the traditional sense - decision. It is about what is perhaps the most momentous decision a person can make: to be honest with himself, with all the consequences for the environment.
The person in question is transsexual. He was born and raised as a man and yet, although he is well integrated socially, he feels the ultimately overpowering urge to want to live only as a woman. At the age of forty, he puts everything on the line: a profession in which he is successful and a happy marriage to his beloved wife. In the latter, he/she fails despite years of intense struggle. She married a man and wants him to stay a man. The resulting massive feelings of guilt on the part of the author certainly played a significant role in the creation of this book. On the other hand, the newcomer experiences a lot of positive things from the rest of the environment, even in her male job in the old company."
